Spirit Message: On the road of life there are many possible routes which all lead to the same final destination: love of Self.
Lovers Walking on Beach
I watched the movie “Dear John” yesterday. It’s a lovely movie about broken promises, healing, autism and young love. The main character, John, is in the military and instead of moving home to marry his true love, he decides to re-enlist after the 9/11 incident. At some point, John stops receiving letters from home. He finds out later that his girl married someone else and he works through the ensuing emotions of betrayal, anger and hurt. I won’t spoil the ending for you because I do recommend watching this movie. It is about healing not only on a personal level, but because of the historical perspective it is about healing on a global level as the impact of 9/11 is explored.
After watching this movie, I understood the positive messages, however, I went to sleep feeling that something deeper for me needed to be exposed. In my prayers before sleep, I asked my guides to help me access this deeper pain that the movie was prompting me to remember. After a more than normal stressful week, I passed out without even turning out my bedside lamp. I woke up at midnight and realized what had happened. Then as I returned to sleep, I heard from my guides the “Dear John” movie connection.
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Dear John
While I was in graduate school, I had the opportunity to live in Denver, Colorado for 6 weeks and during my visit I met a great guy. He was different from any other person I had dated because he was honest, kind and gentle. We met just before he was to leave the country to teach English in the Peace Corps. Before leaving for Africa, he visited me in Alabama and I promised to go visit him after graduation. Then I all too quickly reverted to my self defeating choices when he left and I became engaged to my first husband, the abuser. I never had realized the pain that my friend must have felt when he received my letter, and for that I sent out waves of forgiveness energies, to him and to myself.
“Why did I make such a huge mistake?” I asked my guides while in meditation.
“There are no mistakes, only choices,” they answered. “You chose a more challenging path when you made this choice, but in the end only the outcome is important.”
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“Although it looks murky when you try to figure things out with your mind, when you reach into your soul for an overview things become more clear,” my guides said. “If you had committed to a relationship with Mark then you would have still needed to learn the same life lessons. Lessons about betrayal, death, separation, depression, loss. Either person you chose would have mirrored what was lacking inside of your heart. The outcome would have been the same.”
“What outcome?” I asked, still feeling confusion.
“The outcome of self love,” they answered.
“Oooooh,” I said in my head, “That outcome!” As I sat in continued meditation, I felt Universal Love fill me up. I felt it spilling over into the room and then filling that up. It spilled and spilled until my whole house was filled and then the yard followed by the block and the neighborhood. Before ending my meditation, this love had filled Mother Earth and I could feel her healing energies joining with mine.
So I had not made a bad choice after all, only a more challenging one. And thanks to the challenges in my life, here I am today, a powerful, love inspired creator.
Thank you!
In Peace, Beth
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